Hey I’m back. Missed me? I came back yesterday, I was jet lagged and very mad, so instead of hanging out at home I came to school today. To add to my headache their was a bunch of kids from the middle school I think 8th graders, taking a tour of the high school. I walked up to one group of them the consisted of 20-30 of them and completely lashed out on them. I don’t remember what I said, but they entire hall was dead silent and the kids were horror struck, wide open months hanging open. I apologized and they went on the rest of the tour. A couple classmate of mine that I know little of, but their names including my guidance counselor took me aside and ask a couple of questions. I looked at them straight in the eyes and said I was fine, but my break sucked.

So here I am excluded from my school in a little office. I’m suppose to cool down before driving home, so I thought of Hp and here I am. I’m not sure if you wanna here about my week but here it is.

First Day: Arrived at new york. Went to Jan, Don, and Ryan’s apartment. Jan tuck me in bed. Slept the rest of the day from jet lag.

Second Day: My not blood related nephew cole and justin’s b-day. Spent the day eating cake and getting sick.

Third Day: Final called Bree and spent the rest of the day with her at her apartment. And No nothing happened.

Fourth Day: Bree invited me to a party/charity. I was excited. Turns out she had a blind date for me, Cat and she had her own date, Landon. I spent the rest of the night holding the disappointment and anger in and showed Cat a good time then dropped her off.

Fifth Day : I was suppose to have dinner at Brees’. Her kitchen was kind of small so I guess I took advantage of that and then there was a moment. Not gonna describe it because most of you know what I mean and if you don’t use you head and don’t be dirty about it. Knock at the door ruined the moment. Then after they left I had Bree against the door. Lips brushed hers’ for a moment and then she lightly pushed me away. You know the hand to the chest moment to collect your thoughts. This was the part where she started yelling at me about how this was supposed to happen. And I said she kissed me back it’s not like if I jumped her and forced her to kiss me. Trust me if I jumped a girl she’d know. Then she started crying and yelling words in between her gasps for air. Shoved me out of her apartment. I drove over to Jan, Don, and Ryan’s place and grabbed my things quickly while they tried talking sense into me. I grabbed my things took a cab and got the next flight out to NC.

I was hoping to spend 2 weeks in new york, but instead I didn’t even spend a week there. I came home feeling crappy. Then there was my pregnant mom I was not going to make her worry. But she has the mother instinct. She didn’t say anything, but right now she is probably getting the call from my counselor. I’m trying to think about what I did. And that’s what I’m gonna do for the rest of the day and my weekend. Beat myself up about it then work the courage to call Bree after figuring out what I’m supposed to say.