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Wassup! Okas so imma simple kinda gurl. I dnt like drama, but it always tends to find meeh. I reallie dnt care who u are bc if I dnt knoe u, then maybe I dnt wanna knoe u. Iono...jus a thought rite? Hehe. As u can tell, im kinda random at times..well all the time but chyea.. Haha. I talk about anithing n everything. Hrm....I likers fball n fishing. I'ed chose fishing over shopping aniday!! Lol. Uh...iono wat else to say so yuppers. Hehe. Note meeh if u wanna knoe anithing else. Hugs n kisses! Bye mah munchkins!!!
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Dear journal,
  Oka so let's see..I haven't writen one of these in forever. Nw where should I start. Mmm...let's go bak a couple of months.....
  So I wasn't dating anione at the time but my ex n I were...hmm how should u put this.."waiting for each other". We had dated for about a month n broke up bc he was on financial aid probation bc he had failed his spring semester. He denies that it was particially my fault bc I kept him up at nite talkn to me n txtn me all day long. He says he wanted to n that it was his fault. Aniways...long story short, we broke up n promised to wait for each other until he got things settled dwn with skool.Â
  A week went by after the break up n we haven't talked to each other since. I logged on to my msn one afternoon n he was online too. After a couple of mins, he messaged me "hi". We started chatting n it was awkward at first but we got over it. An hour later, I logged off of msn bc my bro wanted to use the laptop. Nt even a minute later, my phone started vibrating. I got a txt message frm my ex saying "why did u log off? U didn't even say bye.." Frm there on out, we started talkn again n everything changed. We txt all day n talked all nite long. Both of us literally got two or less hours of sleep each nite.Â
  There was this one nite that I'll nvr forget. It was the first time that we had stayed up all nite with one another. We had been on the phone for about seven hours by nw n it was about two in the morning. I was getting sleepy kuz I had stayed up studying for a test the nite before. Well after awhile, I fell asleep on him. I woke up ten mins later n to my surprise, he was still on the other line. I was like hello? N he started laughing. He told me that I was snoring n sleep talkin. OMG I was so embarressed. He said that I shouldn't be bc I sounded kute n that it showed him that I was comfortable enough around him that I fell asleep on the phone with him. I think that was when I truely realized that I
had loved him. Well we laughed it off n that was that.
  Three months went by n skool had already started. I was still waiting on him n we had our usual schedule of txtn all day n talkn all nite. Well one nite, we were on the phone n his nephew was there. He was 12 n he wanted to use my ex's phone to kall his 11 yr old gurlfriend. I thought it was kute but he didn't wanna get off the phone with me bc we didn't getta talk all day n that he reallie missed me. Aniways, his nephew asked him if he was talkn to a guy or gurl n if I was his gurlfriend. My ex replied bak that I was his (his exact words) "she's my friend, my best friend"... That's when it hit me... That's all I'll ever be to him. Jus a best friend... I was crushed. I had so many mixed feelings about the situation. I felt like crying n yelling at him n jus everything. I hated him n loved him all at once. I made an excuse about having to do something n told him to let his nephew use his phone. He didn't want me to go but I felt tears coming so I jus hung up. I felt so stupid for falling in love with a guy who prolly was jus playing around with me. He said he loved me but iono. Our relationship wasn't moving forward or anithing so iono if we were ever gonna be anithing.Â
  A couple of weeks later, I started talkn to this new guy. It wasnt like I was cheating on him or anithing bc we weren't a couple. Aniways I ended up going out with this new guy n my ex stopped talkn to me. I guess I screwed that up by moving on. I tried talkn to him n tried making things bak to normal but he jus ignored me for a couple of months.Â
  UGH THE BELL JUS RANG SO ILL FINISH THIS LATER.....
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March 10, 2010 - 9:19am
#2
True.
Plus, don't give him so much attention. If you are always there for him, there will be no excitement for him. I hope you understand what I am trying to say.
March 10, 2010 - 12:00pm
#3
Thanks for the advice. I reallie appreciate it. N yes I did go out with the new guy n the entire time, I jus thought about my ex. I broke up with him n told me ex that I was still in love with him n if he felt the same. He said no... So yea, I jus dropped if but he always txts me nw adays n I ignore it bc he has a gf nw
March 11, 2010 - 8:50am
#4
Well, your doing the right thing by not replying to his contact. If you did that would just complicate things. lol. Screw him. I hope you get over him fast and find someone worth putting effort in. You'll find someone and be happy and forget about this guy. One thing I have learned is that girls are picky weather they admit it or not. They simply need a variety to choose from.
March 12, 2010 - 12:20pm
#5
Oka I'll admit that I'm picky but I'm picky on personality. Looks are watever to me but if the guy has a reallie blah kinda personality then I'm out. He can't be boring or nt knoe how to joke around. I did find someone n I'm happie with him. =D
March 10, 2010 - 9:15am
#6
Some guys in this world are just meant to be your best friend. It's okay.
I know what you mean! I hate the "Oh, claire! You are a cool person! You are such a GOOD buddy!" I hate the line! I heard it too much that I decided not to waste my time on guys anymore. Girl, it's his lost.
Some guys just don't know what they want. However, it's a two way street. I know I am guilty of not knowing what I want as well.
Only time will wash away those tears of yours. Take care!
March 10, 2010 - 12:07pm
#7
The thing is is that I dnt wanna be his best friend. I so in love with him n iono wat to do about it. I'm trying to get over him with time but everyday something always reminds me of him. We had talked five months before we went out, dated for a month, n waited for each other for four months. We still talk on n off but it's jus reallie hard getting over him...
March 10, 2010 - 1:49pm
#8
It takes time to heal. Plus by reading, you and him still have that connection in between that just need to connect but I guess not after what your ex had said to his nephew. But you never know when he said you're his best friend could refer to a love. Idk, well I mean during your conversation with your ex. How do you two talk; call each other names, talk about your feelings, getting back etc. Yet I don't get it why breaking up. I mean you and him could still be together and you supporting/telling him what he needs to be done etc. But I guess reasons.
I was in somewhat situation like that before. Not really sure what was the reason my girlfriend broke up with me. According to what she said her friends etc. But yea about a week later she texted me out of surprise. So we started texting and talking like you and your ex. But between me and my ex, we would talk like how we was when we were still dating; calling each other names, telling our feelings ily/imy etc but no at the time we was not dating. I could still feel our connection was still there and everything and the break up was just a simply mistake from her friends since her friends screwed her. Btw it was her best friend from childhood. At time I thought about asking her back out. But no, second thought I didn't want to get hurt again going through all the breakdown etc. So I just left it as we was while she was waiting for me to ask her out again. About 6 months later of just doing what we still do; more than a friend less than a relationship so she decided to cut herself back from me and dated with a new guy. There I lost her and I regerted. I guess the guy and her dated for about a week and she broke it off with him because the guy wasn't treating her right and also how she still has feelings for me. She texted me and told me everything. I was still me. So we started texting talking again. And couple days later I asked her back out. There's my story.
March 11, 2010 - 8:20am
#9
Wow. Ur story sounds alot like mines. I jus dnt knoe wat to do animore. I can't get over him n he can't get over me but he has a gf n I have a bf so it's complicated.
Umm our relationship is wierd... We're hella mean to each other n heka sweet jus depending on the mood. We joke around alot n say stupid stuff that makes the other person laugh. We can talk about the same thing all day long n nt get bored of it as long as we're talkn to each other.
When we were best friends, we did talk about getting bak with one another. We did the whole imy n ily thingy too. Â Â
N yes we do have a connection. It's wierd kuz we can txt or talk for hours without an awkward pause or without the other person getting bored. It's jus the way we've always been since we've met. Â Â
March 10, 2010 - 6:17pm
#10
what a complicated situation...i don't understand why you two break up in the first place??? break up so that he can work on his school??? does the break up help at all??? if you two really love each other,,i think it's fine to date and still focus on school...you just need to understand each others' busy schedule.....lol i'm not that good at giving advice..
March 11, 2010 - 8:22am
#11
Iono why we broke up over that but it's jus reallie complicated. Thanks for the Advice. It doesn't have to be good, as long as it's advice.
March 11, 2010 - 4:22am
#12
O: Well idk much about relationships, but i've seen enough through my friends to help a little?? Lol, but all I know is that you shouldn't be mad at yourself for giving him your all.You've done the best you can and he just stood there on the other side still wanting more. I mean what more can you get if you've already gotten everything?? But as for right now, go out with your new boyfriend and see where things take you. You maybe happier, and even if you do still think about your ex, still give your new relationship your all. But i'm pretty sure that you'll do great. I can see that you're a strong girl (: IDK if this helped at all, lol but i hope it did a little.
March 11, 2010 - 8:24am
#13
Thanks Happy. I did give it my all but it didn't wrk so imma try moving on.
March 12, 2010 - 11:47am
#14
*Sigh* Kuv tsis paub es.
But he couldn't really say you're his girlfriend right since you two weren't "officially" together.
Ummmmm... If you love him then why did you go with the other guy? o.O JW. =] liiFe
March 12, 2010 - 12:16pm
#15
Yea I guess he couldn't... 
I moved on kuz I had waited months already n I thought that maybe if I date the new guy then I could forget about my ex but I was wrong...
First thought: Your phone bill must sky rocketing.
Second thought: The guy doesn't deserve you, even as a friend.
Lastly: Thank you for the advices you've been giving me. Hopefully I can give some back. You sound like a very sweet charming girl. And hopefully you have a killer back bone to know it's not going to work out with that jerk. If he's willing to a killer phone bill every month, he should have enough courage to ask to be your bf. Without a doubt I can tell just my reading you two have a connection if you can talk all night and not be bored. First advice: talk to him and see if he feels the same. Second advice: date the new guy and see how you feel. If you go out with him and think about the other guy you'll know where you stand. Make it clear to the new guy if you don't like him, no point in all three of you hurting. In my opinion one person hurting is enough and I usually prefer if the guy is doing the hurting. Usually guys handle it better. Lastyly: don't lose sleep over this and try not to cry, it doesn't solve anything, but it doesn't make you feel better and your mind can be more calm and clearer after one good hard cry.
All my Love!!