You probably have notice that I don't reply to the comments you leave me. First off I'd like to apologize for that. I do read them when I get around to it and I think about every comment you leave weather it be negative or positive. These blog are more of a journal entry to me than a blog. I can't talk to the people I know about the way I feel. I just can't put them through all the pain anymore. I'd rather pretend to trip, walk into a door, and make myself look like a fool to get a smile out of them. So I'm throwing my burden into these blogs. Bear with me, sometimes the answers may seem so clear to me after blogging my troubles. I get through my days my scribbling my thoughts on pieces of paper and napkin and on rare occasion I chose to share them on Hp, I'm not the only one out there with problems. If you can relate or get a laugh out of my blogs, that's great.

3/3/11 6:15ish
I lay awake moments ago like most nights. I have had nightmares ever since I was a kid. I get 2-3 hours of sleep at night if I get lucky. Followed by nightmares awaking me and then I have to rush to the restroom and punk. Lying on my bathroom floor covered with sweat. Tonight I didn’t fall asleep I just laid in bed in my boxers with the window open bringing in the midnight breeze. How do I get by today? I’m taking each day as they come and sometimes I simply lose myself. If time could stop now in this dark-blue moon-lite room. If time could stop now, I would have no regrets.

And the unnecessary alarm is going off now and my little brother is crying. So I now I have to crawl out of bed and get the “big-brother apron” on and get the formula milk mixed and breakfast started. Hence my day starts off….

9:43ish
At school right now. Had to get away from class so, I’m slacking off in the history office. Take a 30 min nap then get back to class.