So here I am, sleepless, bored, lonely and seeking sanctuary in Hmong Pride again. It's been a year and two days exactly that I've stumbled upon this place(I know right, I'm such a loser to even remember the exact date that I signed up lol!). I didn't think this place would grow on me this much but as I got to know of some nice, interesting and cool people in here I just couldn't stop coming back. There are people in here who sometimes says "You don't have a life that's why you're always in here"..And honestly, somewhat they are right. I don't have a life, a social life anyways. I guess I'm always in here after work because I don't go out. I have used the excuses such as; "This town is too small, there's nothing to do here", "I'm tired, I don't feel like going out"... But in all honesty I just like staying home, I guess I'm anti-social? I guess I just got used to staying home so much? Sometimes I do feel like going out but there's no one to go out with. Some nights I sit on the other side of the screen just wishing I was some place else, with old friends, doing something fun and more productive but a wish is just a thought without no action...

*Sigh* I guess I hate going out and meeting new people and making new friends because I have trust issues. I guess past experiences are still stuck with me and I can't seem to trust people or no one but myself. I guess I'd rather go to work, come home, sit here and just converse with people behind a screen because at least I know I'm safe and I don't have to get personal with anyone and get hurt. No strings attached....

I'm not even making any sense right now, I'm just writing sh*t as it's coming up in my mind. I'm jumping all over the place, not even sure what I'm trying to say lol. But yeah, tonight is really lonely... I have work in about 6 hours or so and I'm still awake.

I'm glad that there's a place like this, even though so many people 'diss' this place I still think it's a great place to keep us lonely souls sane. This place have brought laughter and smile upon me during some of my boring ass nights. I've also learnt quite a lot from reading, listening to people's stories, point of view, advice and different perspective on here. It's amazing how much you can learn from paying detailed attention to 'one' or people's conversations.

I know this place is all fun and games, just a rest area and a big playground to everyone but I'm sure at one stage or another everyone's met some VERY cool, awesome and interesting people. I've got to admit there's been two guys from here that I've gotten pretty caught up with. Good thing I didn't let myself go in too far, I just tested the water and pulled my foot back out so no harm was done. They both are so different but yet so alike too. Good charmers, good flirts and great at playing mind games. I've learnt a lot from them. It's amazing how guys are.....

I've also met some very nice, warm and wonderful girls in here too. They are what keeps me coming back. I miss those awesome mornings where we'd just jest and talk Sh*t til the early morn.

OMFG I'm getting bored, anyways I just wanted to write some crap because I'm bored out of my mind lol. Just still writing random sh*t. I just realized I've written so much pointless crap too LMFAO! Hmmm...

Okay, well I better end it here... Thanks for all the smiles and laughs that some of you have brought to me, it means a lot... =) Okay, my head hurts now LMFAO so I better head to bed... MUAHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!

Xoxoxox Ki@

(This song is beautiful, I love it, really beautiful and deep lyrics....)