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how are you like while you're with you're significant other's family?
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MY FIRST LOVE
I met my husband in college. He was a bad boy, with no ambitions but to hang out with his boys. When we started dating he changed himself. He did a total 360. Everyone was so amazed and thought that he only changed himself to be with me.. to have my love and acceptance. We got married within our first year of dating and things were great-- or so i thought they were.
We've been together for 5 years and married for 4 years. We have beautiful boy who is turning 4 years old. Just a week ago I found out that he had been cheating on me for the past 4 months. These girls that he's been talking to over the phone were girls that he's never seen, they're not even from the same state and he's been talking to them and sending them love messages. As soon as i found out-- i felt straight BETRAYAL. I took our wedding rings and an old photo of us and went to the lake and buried it. I was sitting there for atleast 3 hours just crying to myself.. thinking why. He's so CRAZY / POSSESSIVE and at the end he was the one cheating. I treated the burial like it was HIS burial. I said my good byes and cried my eyes out.
Ever since then I haven't felt the same for him. I can't look at him, can't touch him, I can't even hold a conversation with him. I just feel so sad and enraged with anger! He won't even let me leave.. i feel like I'm just stuck with no way out. He said, "It was just for fun" well his fun just ruined his life with his wife and kid. And like a lot of people say--- whats broken is broken.. my love for him, my feelings for him, my trust. I feel like my husband actually died. When I see him i cry because I miss my husband-- the OLD husband. I feel like he's gone and he's not coming back. No matter what he does or say I just can't seem to forgive him. I feel like there is nothing in this world that can ever make me love him again. I miss him and i feel as if I am in mourning.
It's only been 5 days since I've found out and his infidelity and my feelings from day 1 are still as strong as ever! I don't think that i will be able to forgive him-- at least not soon, but he won't give me the space that I need.. How can someone who "supposedly" loves me so much even have the heart to cheat?! Isn't that ironic? The one who is the jealous one and always accusing me of cheating went and cheated-- he just showed me that after all my mother has warned me about MEN-- he was just like all the other MEN out there..
To people who have cheated on their loved ones--- it's a feeling if hate, disgust, betrayal, confusion, and most of all--- it's hard to forgive them-- so if you were the one doing wrong.. your place as of now is to be understanding and try your all to fight for the ones that you love.
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November 5, 2009 - 8:30pm
#2
I'm glad that you are giving him the freedom of thinking it over... but now what i want from my hubby is reassurance of him never hurting me again.. u have to be consistent of reassuring him and don't give him up with our a fight.. the harder u fight the more he knows that u don't want to leave him. If u just let him leave he's going to think that u don't care for him and u aren't willing to work it out.
November 5, 2009 - 8:48pm
#3
If I could I'd lock him up in a little cage so he can be with me forever but he insist on breaking that cage so all I can do is reassure him that I'm here waiting for him... Sometimes he tells me it's going to take a lifetime for him to get over the hurt & I always tell him I have a lifetime to give... I really do love my husband.. i wish I never hurted him.
I hope you work things out with your husband...
November 6, 2009 - 9:26am
#4
i'm glad that you actually realized that what you did was wrong...good luck because even if he come back to you,,,he will hold that against you...and later on when he cheat on you,,he will blame you for being the one that cheated first...good luck...this is why cheating will always ruin everything in a relationship...
November 5, 2009 - 9:22pm
#5
Wow, reading your blog makes me feel sad. Like your mom, my mother says to never trust any man out there, not even the good ones. My mother and I were never really close when I was growing up, but these were the few words that I can actually take from her to live my own life as I encounter with men and relationships. She's been through two divorce. Watching her marriage clasp was enough already. Been through a few heartaches and betrayal relationships has made it worst for me to trust any bad or good man out there. Until I met my boyfriend. My boyfriend and I have been dating for a year now. I know there are going to be more obstacles to come, but the thought of maybe someday a good man like him would wonder off like any other man would do to find that menace romance with a random chick is frightening and assumable. It's hard, but like my aunt who is the first wife to my uncle always tells me "I stay with your uncle not because of forgiveness but for the sake of my kids." I know relationships and marriage are two different worlds in a way, but the whole cheating, betrayal, and understanding would actually applied to it when both are already one mind, one soul in a relationship. I'm so sorry to hear about what you are going through right now. I hope all is good and if it helps from a total stranger like me, stay strong and do what you gotta do for yourself and your family.
Take care.
November 5, 2009 - 11:19pm
#6
Thank you for sharing your life experience. Things like this should open the eyes of others. Be patient with the person you think you like and love because you dont want to take a second look and she's/he's not really what you want, then what? You cheat on them because they are no longer kool and interesting?
November 5, 2009 - 11:21pm
#7
Should had stick with an awesome guy like me... your life would have been so awesome.. even money couldn't buy that life ^_^
November 6, 2009 - 2:31am
#8
I don't understand why you women just stick around when all is broken. Once a cheat, always a cheat. Don't stick around thinking that he'll ever change because you'll only be lying to yourself! Find your own strength and leave the bastard!
November 6, 2009 - 2:34pm
#9
Events like these make me fear even the thought of marriage.
December 29, 2011 - 12:30am
#10
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I guessed you read my blog... but yes u r right.. the thing to do right now is to be understanding and fight for my love... He fell in love with me because he saw something good in me... I destroyed that good by betraying him... but he's also very lost right now so I'll be waiting for him... When all the confusions & anger dissipates and he has forgiven me, I hope that he finds it in heart to still love me. If not, I hope he find peace in knowing that I'm truly sorry for hurting him. Then I'll let him go... to be free as he wishes..
"The reason people find it so hard to be happy is that they always see the past better than it was, the present worse than it is, and the future less resolved than it will be."
- Marcel Pagnol