You're like the wish that never came true. I looked into your eyes and saw my reflection, and my heart was so taken by it. But all this is within the past. I am in the future now with someone else.

Not only were you risky, dangerous, and exciting but also so intriguing. You were so polite, such a gentleman but then at the same time I sensed a wildness and a dangerous streak in you, that might also secretly exist in me as well. You're the other part of me that I wanted to be. I loved the way you are, how you are so carefree and could let go completely of everything. Just walking around with you in the sunshine, how beautiful it was. You enjoyed being with me spirit and soul, and it is this about you that I love the most. Everytime we talk, it's always long and deep, about in depth topics dealing with either the heart or of life. We had such a good connection that if we weren't so afraid to break our friendship, we would have been each other's best lover.

Can the wrong people meet at the right time and make it through life, while the right people meet at the wrong time and never get a chance at making life worth while. Sometimes I wonder if I should have done things differently. But then again, maybe not. Perhaps people meet at the time they do for a certain reason. Perhaps the two people who might completely be right for each other never met because it wasn't meant to be.

I think about you. You're a part of me. You are my very close friend, someone who knows my thoughts completely and won't judge me for my mistakes. I love you.

But I never took the chance to become more than what we are because I'm content being your friend. I don't desire your body, I don't desire you in any earthly manner. I love you truely with my heart and my soul. In all our time and meetings in life, I just want you to be happy.

I will never ask you to make a life with me or make a relationship with me. I know we both have responsibilities and relationships that we need to retain. But I guess a part of me secretly does want it, to know how it is like to be your lover, to be the person you would do anything for. But a part of me tells me that I already do know. I know that you loved me and might love me still. I don't know if you desire me in any earthly manner or not. But I know that you wish for me to live, love, and be happy. A part of me feels that you've already loved me as deeply as you will ever love anybody.

And it is because of this that it makes me sad. It makes me feel that maybe you are the right person for me but we met too late. We both have people in our lives now and regardless of how involved we get with each other, we value our external relationships way too much to break away from it for each other.

I know it seemed like I was always imparial and oblivious to our chemistry, but this is the secret that I couldn't tell you when I've told you all else. I can not talk to you about yourself. And love, you're like the wish that I secretly wished for. It makes me sad that I'm too afraid to ever admit it to you. I apologize to you and to myself for not able to give us a chance. But I can't afford to be hurt. I'm apologize again for being such a coward.

I do believe that it is too late now. But it doesn't matter. I will continue to love you the way I already do. Nothing can stop my heart from caring and loving you in this way. I love you, my dear friend.