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To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world. Or maybe you really are just one person among billions. Geez, how bad can it get?
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how are you like while you're with you're significant other's family?
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New addition to my family
Can’t say I didn’t try, because I did. Dating is not working out. It’s not that it wasn’t fun, just that things don’t click. Maybe I should give it more time then rather judge them after only a couple of dates. But then I wouldn’t consider it a date more like a night out with a stranger. We talked about stuff family, career, and past ex’s was mentioned a couple of times. I just didn’t feel it, anything, nothing. I’m not basing this on one date; I’m basing this on a number of dates with different girls.
I lied in bed like I do most nights and watched the blue hazy light come in from the window with the moon staring down at me. I sobbed quietly and murmured the words I-Miss-You-So-Much over and over. It was 4 in the morning when I grabbed my keys and wrote a note for my parents telling them I wanted to take a ride before heading off to school. I drove and drove and when I stopped I realize I cam back to where it all ended for me. I walked over and let out “Hey, mind watching the sun rise with me.” I sat in my usually spot and place my head leaning on the head stone. “Sorry.” I closed my eyes trying to remember how she look, how warmed she use to fell while holding me. I wanted to say it would be the last time, I wouldn’t do it again, but I was never good at lying to her, so simply sat closing myself off to the world to how cold it felt with only a thin T-shirt and shorts on. The beeping of my watch alarm surprised me as I reached over to turn it off. Very casually, I got up and stared at the head stone again “Be back when I can.”, flashed a small grin and walked over to my car. Made it to school on time, but still feeling miserable.
I know you guys have about had it with me. What can I say; I’d rather annoy strangers than family. They worry too much. Don’t misunderstand I do regard Hp as a somewhat distant family. Yesterday I wrote it was my fault my mother couldn’t have kids. I went home and talked to my mother and she said she was pregnant. Well it looks like she still make babies, before I was born the doctors gave her a shot so that her bodies won’t produce antibodies to the babies blood. I spent my life blaming myself so I guess this takes a load off me. It’s a legacy for a male to keep the family name going, but it wouldn’t be fair if I just married someone knowing how I feel. I’m not sure if it’s a boy or girl, she wants to be surprised so we won’t know until it’s out. I know I worry my parents more than I should so I’m not going to break them the news until the baby is out and my mother is stable. I think some people should move on after a sad ending, but for some people like me we’re just not meant to. I’m not sure how to break the news to my family and friends. Well, I have at least 9 months or how ever long it takes a baby to be ready. I’ll be dating various girls in the next 9 months to see if I change my mind and trust me I hope I do. The last thing I wanted was to disappoint, hurt, or let my family and friends down. I think I'll make a good big brother, what do you think? Should I be prepared for anything?
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March 10, 2010 - 8:18am
#2
all my dates have been blind dates so I'm sure I have probably dated almost every kind of girl there are. I'm not sure what a big brother would do, but I guess I'll take it as it comes. Crying won't be that bad I can almost always change people mood and dirty diapers won't be a problem I just have to be delicate with the baby.
March 10, 2010 - 12:38pm
#3
Blind dates suk! Go out n find ur own gurl. If u dnt getta pik the gurl then u wnt like her. N dnt compare her to ur ex..major mistake if u do kuz then u'll nvr find a gurl worth caring about again. N being a big bro/sis isn't hard. I have seven younger siblings. :/ they get annoying but I still love them so everything fine. Lols
March 11, 2010 - 8:35am
#4
A friend of mines' in laws own a bar so I'm gonna get dragged in from the back entrance this coming weekend if I don't have any plans. We'll have to see if I can still pick a girl up or get picked up by one. Wish me luck.
March 12, 2010 - 12:36pm
#5
GOOD LUCK! N have fun!!! Be urself n make a good impression. =D
March 9, 2010 - 4:52pm
#6
Congrats on the new addition to the family. You'll be a fun big brother. Just be prepared for the bratty-ness, crying, whining, screaming, and kicking. lol J/K! You'll do fine. If you can put up with your little niece then there's nothing to worry about. You'll take it in like it was nothing.
About your dates, it's ok if they're not as you have expected. It takes time and it seems like you're pushing yourself just to go onto these dates when you really don't want to. You're probably trying to look for the qualities of your pass gf in these girls and you're not having any success in that. That's probably why you're not clicking with them. Don't push yourself too hard ok. You're still probably rusty because it's been awhile since you've dated. These are just fun dates, nothing for you to take seriously. I don't mean that don't take the date seriously, but just don't take it as you're really dating them. Just sit back and enjoy.
March 10, 2010 - 8:24am
#7
Years of practice, I'll have to go home and thank my niece. Most my dates have been find we click on a friend level and have lots of fun. But there was this one girl who just couldn't keep her hands on herself. I wanted the date to end so badly, but I made it through, took her home wished her good night, then called my friend and told them I wouldn't be able to handle her type. lol they had a great laugh. True I would love to just sit back and relax.
March 10, 2010 - 1:01pm
#8
lol Yes, go thank your niece for the practice. It's ok to click on a friendship level. That's how a lot of relationship starts anyway. haha I wouldn't want to be on a date where the person can't keep their hands to themselves either. Well, just have a great time and have fun with the date.
March 11, 2010 - 8:38am
#9
Me and my niece went out for ice cream. Since I need a baby for the classes I'm taking I asked her even though she's a toddler now. We're both super excited, our first class is sometime next mid-week.
March 9, 2010 - 6:28pm
#10
congrat on the new bro or sis, you should give love a chance. it aint that bad, soon you will find the meaning of love and you will eventually forgetting your past.
dont be like one of my cousin,whom couldnt be with her bf so she stay single for more than 40 years. the story behind it wasnt like your, but her parents wont let she marry her first bf whom was very poor. the bf cried and cried and past away. so she decided not to get involve in kev hlub for 40years. but she finally got over it and got married last year..
March 10, 2010 - 8:27am
#11
I wouldn't stay single for 40 years. But I wouldn't be able to love again like I have for Klaire. Eventually, I would settle down maybe not with someone I'm madly in love with, but with someone I can respect and learn to love and live with. That wouldn't be fair for her and it's very selfish of me to do that, but that's the best I can do right now.
March 9, 2010 - 7:02pm
#12
I don't really get your story. -_-' I thought you were having a baby. Then it was your mother. But I kinda get it now. I think. Well, relationship aren't that easy. There are mostly misunderstanding and other stupid stuff. Like whatever. But I thought I give up on love after I broke up with my ex. But recently this person came along, and change my mind. xDDD I just thought I give it a shot and turns out, he is a really awesome person to be around, and I adore him alot! 
But I'm still a lil skeptical. Don't mean anything thou. Well, dating them don't mean that you're gonna marry them. What are you scared of? Just give love a try. It won't be that bad.
Well, I see that your mother had to have some kind of medication so her body won't produce antibody to kill you when you weren't born yet? Well, if it is, don't blame yourself. She can still have babies. Well, what's the reason she can't have kids? And she is pregnant already? Well, if it's what I said, don't worry about it. I love to explain, but it'll take forever. LMAO! Don't worry about being a good brother to the new addition. Just make sure that they listen well, and be a good role model to him or her. I'm pretty sure your mother would love that. Take care.
March 10, 2010 - 8:29am
#13
I love my mom. Me and my dad are so proud of her. We are already getting the emergency bag ready and are planning to take classes about babies. When the babies ready to come, I'll be ready to be a good role model for him or her.
March 10, 2010 - 6:55pm
#14
haha...
March 10, 2010 - 11:21am
#15
idk if i can read your stories anymore. they're just so heart breaking. *sighs* i'll read them later. ;]
March 11, 2010 - 8:40am
#16
no point in getting depressed over them. If that's how you feel when you read my blogs I hope you rather not read them. I'm only a stranger and what I'm saying may or may not be true, so try not to lose sleep over it. I like the cheerful you better.
March 10, 2010 - 6:57pm
#17
take your time if you're not ready to move on..hopefully you don't do crazy stuff that will make your parents worry...take care bro..
March 11, 2010 - 8:43am
#18
Thanks lengo. No worries I know my limit and I'm not stupid. I try not to disappoint or worry my friends or family. Heck, sometimes I try not disappointing strangers I've only met.
March 11, 2010 - 4:34am
#19
YAY, Glad that you're having a new family member I'm pretty sure you'll be a great big brother! (: Um, don't fall back too far. It's not good, but it's okay to take your time.
March 11, 2010 - 8:44am
#20
thanks, I'm super glad too. I havn't been this happy or excited in a while.
It's oka if u can't move on yet. Keep trying for the next couple of months n see how things go. Maybe ur jus dating the wrong type of gurl. Try a new style of gurls n go outta ur comfort zone. Dnt blame urself becuz ur mom couldn't have kids. N congrats on ur new baby sis or bro!!! U'll make a great big brother. Dnt teach him or her ani cuss words though...lols. Umm have fun with all the crying n dirty diapers when the baby comes.
"Be happie in everything you do in life, keep your promises, cherish everyone that comes and goes your way, and most importantly...remember to always smile for me..." -mai 03.22.10