See I never doubt life,
But why is my life going down hill,
And now I feel like my heart is on a stand still.
I'm trying to live it up
but why does it feel like everyone has given me up
Why do they curse me in everything that I do?
When life is what I am trying to subdue,
It feels like I have a debt to pay them for the cost of living,
They just don't know how long I've kept these feelings,
No wonder why I put my walls up so high,
Where helicopters wouldn't even dare to spy,
Cause if they did, my walls will just keep stacking like tetris,
Not in their favor cause I get to twist the blocks around,
Play around till they drop down to the ground,
But I never had to give up to my feelings cause behind these castle walls,
I used to be a nice man till people took advantage of me making my flesh crawl,
But I kept it all inside, and now indeed I'm heartless,
Cause I no longer feel wrong for all the wrongs that I had committed,
But I gotta admit, it feel so good, when you're not the wrongdoer at all,
But you gotta understand, this came with a prize, and the prize I paid was my sanity,
when you lose the heart and the mind, what is left is just an empty shell
Behind these castle walls, all you see is what I want you to see
Cause I am the master of illusion,
Which leaves you the impression that everything is alright,
But in fact, in the end, everything is just a pile of lies,
Cause behind these castle walls, I sit alone in my throne,