A soothing song..

So, I guess we can't delete our account? That's so lame. Anyways, I've written like one goodbye note before, but I feel like this one will be permanent this time. Big changes in my life will force me to stay out of HP for now too. But in a sense it's a good thing too, I really do need to get out there, work ten times harder now that things will be changing and save up twenty times more. I guess this change is going to be good...I hope. It's quite sad but I'm thankful I have HP to vent to while I had these sleepless night. I'm glad I've gone through this process and made it through on my own. I've finally come to term with everything, I guess sometimes things happen, things change, circumstances change. Responsibilities and all will be thrown into your hands now because you're the oldest one left. Life gets hard sometimes, it's hard for everyone too I'm sure =). When I'm down, sad or finding it hard to wake up, get out of bed and go to work I think of those who are having it MUCH WORSER than I am and that definitely helps me move forth and carry through with my day while going through this madness..

I'm afraid to show my feelings or my true thoughts. I'm always testing people because I've lost so much trust before so I'm sorry to that ONE PERSON if I've done anything wrong? You know who you are. You're nice, kind and all. Out of those two guys I've met on here you're much better than them you know that? =). I'm not talking about the outside but I'm talking about your heart, your personality and your ways. You're simple and happy. You're not complicated like other guys. You're genuine and I didn't feel like I had to test you like I had done to other people, guys and those two guys I've met first. You were never a rebound to me, you're a great friend, I remember you're one of the first person I've met when I first found this place. You've always been the chirpy, cool, easygoing kind of person. You were easy to approach and joke around with. So much that our bond has just become not serious at all anymore. I guess it was my fault when I pulled the April fool joke on you? When I said I'd call tonight but I didn't? Are you mad at me? Sorry, my dad was using the home phone tonight, I was going to call you buddy but he didn't get off until later. I came back looking for you on here but they said you left already. I hope and wish you stay the same. It's kind of strange that you want to be a "JERK". =). Being a jerk only works for some guys, not EVERY guy. Just be who you are because I like you the way you are. I'm glad you grew up to be a kind hearted, simple hearted and nice person. You've been through a situation close to what I will be going through very soon too yet you grew up well =). I guess we've met at the wrong time? Tonight you seem mad at me? Sad? I asked some buddies in chat but they won't let me in on anything so I guess it's that way. I'm glad you're good to me. Thank you for not being like the first two guys I've met. =).. You'd surpass all my "GAY TEST' in a blink =). So don't change ok?

As to all the great people I've met in here, I just want to thank each and everyone of you for being so kind, nice and all for this one year while I took refuge and comfort in here. I know I may seem emo to most of you? Hhahaha but I sometimes wish that I'd get a chance to meet the people I've come to be close with in here and show them that I'm actually pretty chirpy, bubbly and quite talkative haha in person. =). I'm like a kid, I get sad, mad and frustrated but I get happy just in an instance too and forget what I was mad or sad over. I'm just like that.

I wish everyone the best for now and til next time I drop back in to visit again. Brother N said last night he had a feeling I'd be the next to leave, I laughed it off but I guess he's right haha, he must be psychic shiat haha. Now that life's changed for me, even if I wanted to come on here and meet you all again my time won't permit me anymore. =). So much responsibilities.....waits ahead....

Oh and I forgot to thank one more person - Thanks Pingu =). I feel we are like strangers now, don't know what happened but it's okay.. I guess people change right? =). Tk.

Once again too all the great people I've come to know a bit or more personally on here, thanks a lot =). In a way you guys helped me stay sane for this last year... It was really lonely haha..... Thanks.

Panou, Mary, Judy(I'll probably see you around before you move or we move? haha), Kassie, Mandy, Happy, Nolee, Kathie, Paia, Atown, Kela, Cereal, Cyn, Fresno Mandy, Karen(kc), Pasee, Chingu(since I think you're an undercover girl too lol), Xai, Mai, Hangie, Naly, Nhyia, EC, Valerie, Nadine, Cereal(Germany), Sexnerd, Macy, Kay, Ey, Boobies,Sammy, Katie, Anna, Chinkygurl, Jasmine,and all the other girls it's good to come home sometimes and see you all on here chatting away, cracking jokes and making my night fun, good and fly by. You girls all remind me off the good old days when my sister was still here, when everyone was still here haha. I know my note is getting so cheesy and gay haha but I'm not ashamed to admit it I've become so damn attached to this place and some people in here. =). It's like this is my second home now haha. You girls are funny, fun, awesome and great in your own ways so have fun on here but seek outside of here and do great too! I shall catch you sometimes or when everything is settled..........All the best! =D xoxoox
Take care and lots of gay love <3 =)

Ki@. =D