So someone was talking about recruiting girls for Football for J4 this year.

My first thought, "HOLY CRAP?! It's ALREADY THAT TIME OF YEAR AGAIN?!"

Dang.. makes me think, what have I done in past months, LOL!

Well, that's it. Bye :'D

In the end, I'm the one who's guilty of all the charges
I'm the one facing reality's consequences
I'm the one to blame..
For all the lies and nonsense
My stupidity led me to a dead end to nowhere
An abyss that confronts me with no other choice
A world only blurred by deception
Now, Forgiveness is not an option
I am not worthy of this love that comes running towards me
I am better left alone in this cold world that I've trapped myself in
Lock away the evil that has killed so many
Sew these stitches on my mouth to silence my lies
To quiet myself from deceiving others

I got kicked out for saying, "SEXY."
Oh dang, I'm so great.

Message Violations my butt.

I feel the rage that fills your heart
Your mind gone astray with no more doors to open
No more exits for you, only dead ends with the greetings from a reaper
Dead roses stand your way, whispering chants that no longer have meaning
I feel your cold heart, your emotions locked inside
Only threads are holding your life together
I see the smiles you fake, the laughs you burst out
The tears you shed, the pain you feel

~~~ To be continued ..

- Leenah

This melody that seems to go on and on
The syncing harmonized heartbeat of ours
Lingering around afraid to let go
The deep, dark, abyss that has no end
I can feel the darkness casting over me
These shadows that seem to always follow gracefully
Those ringing bells that come from nowhere
Is this a dream? A fantasy? A totally different world?
I'm on the journey to Happiness with no regrets
Each step I'm taking, it's a step closer to finding my true self
Gazing up at the night sky, stars shining so bright
Each star I pass by, memories begin replaying through my mind

I've seen you cry so many times
When will you pucker up and live life?
I've seen you play with Death
So unafraid and careless
I've found you happiness, now accept my gift
I gave all my strength to find this so please don't reject it
I made my way through dark abysses of the heavenly nights
To the scorching hot sun of broad daylight
I've surpassed life's purposeful meanings
And finally have a philosophical mind to determine my own reasoning
I sacrificed my life as I took daring risks to get you this
Now can you do me a favor and do as I wish?

Unable to see through your wandering spirit,
Unfathomable, the color of your eyes
A passing wind, a waking dream
Like life, love remains undefined
Your heart, what confuses it so?
The outline of your body disappears into the night
I watch the cherry blossoms, waiting to see their blooms
I watch you, embracing me, your eyes lonelier than the moonlight
And I let you seek happiness in someone else's arms
Loving you, untouchable like a heartbeat
Painting you, I cannot paint your skeleton
Remembering your expression, my reason to persist in waiting for you

Surrounded by fakes, society is a lie. You will never understand me. Cast me away if you will, you and I are far from being friends. Strangers, we will forever be. Your endless tries are going nowhere, you even gave up half way. Don't pester me with your questions, your presence is already enough. Leave me be in this world of agony, I don't need your companionship in such a place.

This is a pointless, useless blog..
But I decided to make one because I felt like it.
Yay me.
No point in getting to know me because I'm a very boring person.
The end.

Once Upon A Lost Soul In The Deep, Dark Abyss That Never Fades Away.. I Understand Your Endless, Excruciating Pain. You Went Through The Gates Of Hell And The Entrance To Heaven; Rejected By Both, You're Only A Wandering Presence. A Tormented Mind, A Lingering Ghost, The Cruel Reality That Truth Brings You.. - Leenah

Thanks, for always being there.. NOT.

I never got along with Hmong people in the first place anyway.
Why bother coming here anymore?

The end.

AUGUST 22 IS MY BIRTHDAY ~ && Guess what I'm planning

PHO DAY ~!~!~
Oh yes, you know it! Going to Saigon on my Birthdayy
I invited 100+ people, but I doubt all of them are going to come.
Saigon said they can fit 200 people?
I'm talking about the one on University, btw
Sooo, I'm only going by what they said about the seats
Okay.. - looks around -
It's a month away, mm-hmm :3
I can't WAIT
Boyfriend is going to come, too <3
WHA, SO THRILLING - jumps up and down with eyes tightly closed and a slight :3 face -

I don't know why I envy you so much. Maybe it's the fact that you're getting to do more things than I am. Though you are, does it mean you have a better life than I do? I don't know. Maybe your life is just more adventurous than mine. I don't know why I have to be so evil. I just don't know, it's just how I am. I can't stand people doing better than I am. Am I a bad person for thinking this way?

Yeah, so what, hmph. It's not like it matters. It was a catchy title
I'm like a veteran on here, but then again, I'm always on hiatus a lot.
So no one knows me I don't leave a legacy on here. Great.
My auntie is coming down for J4 from California Awesome, eh?
PWHAHAHHA, dude... J4 is the same every year.. I don't know if I wanna go.
It says that everyday for the rest of the week is sunny EXCEPT FOR J4 WEEKEND~!
How messed up is that?! Very. Very much indeed. Stupid weather >:[
It's okay though, no sunburn that much then PWHAHA~

You guys suck.
Who's that SMART KID on HP CHAT?
He says that if I knew who he was, I'd probably kick his ass
Maybe I WILL, just for kicks, ya know?
Thank goodness BARA doesn't come on anymore.
I love to pick arguments with him and it lasts forever.
Where did Save A Chicken go?! MY CHEEKEN?! WHERE ARE YOU?!
Keesh, My Atom, he's probably sleeping right now
Crisco, the last thing he said to me was that he was going to go kill himself, LOLOLOL, why CHRIS, WHY?!
Akina's my girlfriend, back off, ROFLMFAO :3

I don't get how it works? Is it suppose to go DOWN or UP? Huh? Last time I been here, I was on Level 10, then Level 9.. Now I'm on Level 8? Levels are supposed to go down? Maybe it's more like RANKS then levels, yah? LOL. Weird.. OH WELLLSSSSSSS, so basically, it's just RANKS GOTCHAAA ~~~~

Wha, everyone here knows everyone else. Unlike me No one knows me, haaa ~~~~ PWHAHAHAHAHA, suckers :3 HPers, how's life for ya? Man, I remember when I used to be a HP addict, go in the Chatroom 24/7, OMMMGG, good old days I tell ya, LOL. But now, I don't, I don't know why, I don't see anything interesting in there much anymore, haha. The people there are cool, the regulars to say. The come and go people are pretty ugh? I mean, they like to start drama :3 It's too funny, I've gotten into a few little amusing arguments with people.

Aish, it's been forever since I've heard this song <3 It brings back such memories... - sighs - Listen to it on Youtube or just read it

Fall For You - Secondhand Serenade
The best thing 'bout tonight's that we're not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before?
I know you don't think that I am trying
I know you're wearing thins down to the core

But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you over again
Don't make me change my mind

Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true

This Song Tells Everything About How I Feel I needn't explain at all. Just read or Youtube the song and listen

Meet Me Halfway - Tim Benson
I swear I wake up baby
Thinking that I see your face
Everyday I feel like I’m falling apart
I know can’t turn time, can’t erase mistakes
I’m feeling like second place
Baby, I’m torn apart
Here I go again [I’m talking to myself]
The mess I’m in
Cant you see it’s for real
Without your love, I can’t survive

Meet me halfway
Don’t put my heart on the line
I wanna give you everything
All the time
Meet me halfway

Oh, it's so SAD, well not really. So he's moved on, so obviously I should, too. LOL. But like, seriously? He lied to me that no matter what we are, we'd still be there for each other. He's never there for ME anymore, he always ignores my calls, like seriously? What kind of effin' B!TCH is that? Stupid hoe. Broken promise, how sad, shows what kind of man he is. Stupid B!TCH, Lol :3 I'm so mean, yet I am so awesome, haaa. Gay. Anyways, seriously though? Lie to me like that? Geez, I knew this would have happened, grr. Oh, it's fine, I'll get over it someday.

Does the past haunt you like crazy? Does it still linger around you when it's unwanted? If I had a change at life again, I would take it and relive everything over. Sometimes, I wish life was like a game, all you'd have to do is press the restart button. I wish my childhood memories were like Music, just hit replay. Sometimes, I wonder if it's worth it.. Dedicating my all.. Then in the end, it all comes an end. Done and gone. Everything starts to vanish and there's nothing you can do. Guilt washes over you, Sorrow engraves itself in the Heart. Now what do you do?

Darn.

I didn't see it happen
I didn't know it'd be this way
My faults are unseen
As I hide this guilt behind me
Do you see those withered roses to the side
That are wishing and wanting for the shining light?
In this world that is full of nothingness
Is there such thing as forgiveness?
Do you see the dark abyss in front of you
Getting deeper and deeper each second?
It's like a never-ending path that leads to nowhere
Where's the new doors that I awaited for for so long?
Where's the light that I yearned for for all this time?
I'm standing here in a pool blood

I've seen you cry so many times
When will you pucker up and live life?
I've seen you play with Death
So unafraid and careless
I've found you happiness, now accept my gift
I gave all my strength to find this so please don't reject it
I made my way through dark abysses of the heavenly nights
To the scorching hot sun of broad daylight
I've surpassed life's purposeful meanings
And finally have a philosophical mind to determine my own reasonings
I sacrificed my life as I took daring risks to get you this
Now can you do me a favor and do as I wish?