Lately everyone seems so upset and down. And I guess I'm just here to say that, there's more important things to worry about then little relationship issues. Believe, I know how relationships go and how complicated they get.

Recently, I've started to get lost in all the relationship issues that have occurred lately, but last night I talked to a good friend of mine. This past spring semester, she found out that she had chronic leukemia, and this summer instead of going out and enjoying the weather, she's getting Chemo.

Why is that you can't just own up to how you feel?

I'm getting sick of playing your games buddy. Don't tell me that me one thing, if you can't do anything about it. I'm giving you until the end of this weekend to make your move.

If you don't do something drastic, to show me anything. I'm seriously going to walk away. I'm getting sick of being your last resort, the girl you call when you're in a drunken daze. If you mean any of the things you say with your frustrated voice on the line, then do something about it.

Damn it! Stop being a coward!

Melo' Breeze (멜로 브리즈) Bye Bye

Goodbye my love
One-sided it may have been
For this small heart of mine
You broadened it for me

Show me a smile my love
But don't worry
Although you leave me
My heart won't stop beating

It's only love
Bye Bye... Bye Bye
Goodbye My Love.
Still I can't erase you from my memory
My tears drown me
As those scattered words strike me

Goodbye, my love
Let's match our steps
Roads we walked
Shall remain as we left them

Show me a smile my love
[b]Don't be sorry

Hey HPers! Just wanted to ramble and wish everyone a HAPPY THANKSGIVING and Happy New Year (Hmongwise) Lols. I know that some of you guys are having a hard time, but just remember to be grateful for what you had. Even if it no longer stands there, just be glad you got to cherish it. Keep the memories alive, because those remain the same, when everything changes.

How does someone know when to give in?

If two people are arguing. And they both won't call each other?
Who's supposed to give in and call the other one?

The one who randomlyy treated the other person badly out of frustration?
Or the innocent one, who was attacked because her friend was upset?

If the innocent one calls in and stops with the ignoring of each other, does that make her look weak?
I know people will say she's the better person, but let's be serious no one really cares about who's the better person.

To start off, I'm still unsure of the HP Blog Posting Rules, so if this isn't considered a blog, then I apologize. Mods can deleted however they choose. It's just a way for me to vent. Lols.

So yesterday, I felt something that I've never felt before. It's not the feeling of butterflies in your stomach, where you laugh uncontrollably because you're so nervous, and scared that it'll disappear before you know it or in other words "Love". But simply the feeling of being breathless and feeling like times stopped and you're reminded of all those memories that once used to make you act like a moron.

I'm getting so disappointed with how people have become around me. The ones who are supposed to be my best friends and my family members who "will always be there for me" or so they tell me. Why is it that when they need someone to vent to, they're always calling me up, but when I want to vent, they don't even care. They tell me I'm stupid for being sad.

So we broke up over ratio statistics.

"What's the ratio of us working out after 4 years?"

Lols. I hate math. Who would think my relationship would end because of stupid probability? This it the first time that I can't fight it, I guess it just wasn't meant to work out no matter how hard I try to bandage things. I'm just disappointed, cause we tried it again after our first failed attempt. Lols.

You know what I realized?
My parents have programed me to care what other people think too much.
So no matter what I do, I can't please anyone!
Why the hell did I let myself become what they want me to be.
Now, I can't even have fun without feeling guilty towards my parents.
And my parents have made me into this figure that the whole town likes.
Uhhh.... I'm so stupid for doing everything my parents wanted, cause now my parents have me so pressured to be a "Good Person."

Ughh... I can't even please them!
I do everything they want!

I'm trying really hard not to disappoint my parents.
Everyone tells me that I need to live for myself and stop being such a scaredy cat.
It's just that if my parents don't agree with the whole ordeal, then when I think about it, it just makes me feel guilty...
And because of that I'm already going into cut myself off mode.
I already feel myself acting like a jerk.
Ughh.... I don't want to ruin things again.

I need to take risks, but I'm such a scaredy cat!
What if my parents turn out to be right!?
What if they're wrong!?

Lol. I'm just thinking a lot.

So my guy friends told me that I'm chubby, so I took it as fat.
But they got all worked up, because they said I wasn't fat, just chubby.
Lol. What's the difference?
Oh and they said that Chubby was cute? What's that supposed to mean?

Have you ever noticed how when you're waiting for that special someone to call you, all the wrong people call you? All the ones, you don't want to talk to you call you! Ughh... It's like a trick. So every time your damn cellphone rings, you rush to get it only to read on the caller ID that it's the one person you don't want to talk to. Ugh... It's annoying.

Lol. Thanks for listening. =]
I just heard theKong&ShuProject's 2nd CD. There's only one good song on there. Lol.
I'm pretty disappointed. It's okay though, cause NC guys are cute.