So i been gone for a long time... Just decided to say HI HI HI I miss my lovely hp people... *sigh.

"Luvs a bitch. We cant get what we want. Just live with it and flow with it. Life throws us in all directions. We risk what we are familiar with to take a new road, a new journey to the unknown. Luv. The most powerful emotion in all earths being. Lol. We are born with it, we learn about it, and we yearn for it. We deny we dont need it, but we do. Deep to the deepiest core of ourselves. With out it, equals Loneliness. My thoughts of the night. Well Goodnight."
-Nougies

ps.

Bored. Haven't been on for a bit.
Nothing to blog about.
Just feeling like I wanna scream out the word
"you ****en bitch!!"
lol. Gotta vent off somewhere..
Okies bye.

I found this little article. When times are bad, & u feel like ur da only one & no one understand. Its hard to see the real thing, no matter what, u fight because its not what u feel or think, but u know its real love. Yes, we fight, we argue, we say things that hurts so much, but yes...I believe I'll keep on trying to work it out with my man, even though he is a no good ugly fatass mutafawken bastard who deserves to be pushed under water & beaten with a bamboo stick...Ugh yes, but anyhow just do please read the article. If I thought it was useless I would not bother posting it.

I hate him. Do you understand that feeling? It’s the feeling deep inside of you that when you love that person so much but at the same time you hate so much that you just want to hurt them bad. I feel like that. I feel weak, tingly all over the body. We had a huge argument again. He’s just sitting there as calm as can be and act like nothing happen after our argument after telling me that he has not felt the same love as he felt for me since we argued a couple months ago because of the same reasons. Regrets of loving me?

"Guys are assholes. If you argue with him, you're hard-headed. If you're
quiet, you don't care. If you call him, you're too clingy crazy. If he
calls you, he says you should be happy. If you don't love him, he'll
try to win you. When you do love him, he leaves. If you don't **** him,
you're a tease. If you do, you're easy. You tell him your problems, he
says you're irritating. If you don't, he says you don't trust him. If
you lecture him, you just want to argue. If he lectures you, it's
because he "cares." If you break a promise, he doesn't trust you

Do you ever feel like you alone and your never close to anyone? Well that's how i feel. I don't fit, i don't belong, im not a part of anything. Maybe its the effort that i don't put into it, maybe its the way i am or maybe its just plain ole me. Or maybe i just have to much to do that i cant or dont have time for others. Maybe this thing some people keep saying is true. Maybe my "cold heartedness" and my "lackingness" or my "cynical characteristic self" makes others not want to be around me! HAH! This is freakin gay ****!!!!!!!!!! ugh! Just kinda feelin a little emotional...

Luvs a bitch. We cant get what we want. Just live with it and flow with it. Life throws us in all directions. We risk what we are familiar with to take a new road, a new journey to the unknown. Luv. The most powerful emotion in all earths being. Lol. We are born with it, we learn about it, and we yearn for it. We deny we dont need it, but we do. Deep to the deepiest core of ourselves. With out it, equals Loneliness. My thoughts of the night. Well Goodnight.

Sad. One of my good friend(who it thought was)that i've known for a very long time said something about me. HA. I might seem like im always so MOODY, but im not. Its insulting. So Screw u. This is wat iam to u? Lol nothing but another chick not even a friend. Shoulda never thought of it. Always and was a BIG TIME Meanie. Ugh, just fawk it. Whatever. It is just the internet. Dont bother sayin hi.

*talk to the middle finger
Im out.

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Continued frm previous post...

I am what I am today.
I am surround by all these negative things. Thank you for your comments. Yes, i have the good lord in my life. He is what has held me and led me through this corrupted life. When there are times that are bad N i feel so tempted, I quickly run to my room to kneel and pray to the lord, to give me the strength. I pray that he helps me by walking with me, and to whisper in to my ears just so then i know I am not alone. It gives me my sanity back.

To think that, I've always thought that ppl were always good ppl. Yes, I've lived in a world of LaLa land, but you know, that's because I lived a sheltered life. I'm thankful for that. At least I have experienced the joy of living in a happily ever after life with my loving parents, at a young age. But as i step into the outside world, where mommy and daddy are not going to be there to help protect and or shelter me frm harms way, I was scared. To be sooo damn blissfully ignorant of whats is happening in this world was a blessing.