It's been a while, but I pop in and out of this place every now and then. Because I couldn't sleep, I thought I'd do a quick blog post.

At funerals, my sister is the type of person who'll cry for a stranger she doesn't even know. Sometimes it's embarrassing because she cries more than the family of the person who has passed on.

It's so hard for me to be like that. I'm simply not an emotional person, or when I do get emotional, I don't like crying in front of others. It makes me feel vulnerable, and I hate that feeling.

My boyfriend and I live together and work together. We see each other almost 24/7. The only time we're not together is if I'm asleep and he's out fixing his car or if I'm out with my sister. Even when I go out with friends, he's there because the majority of my friends are one half of a couple.

I usually don't do anything for Halloween, but this year I'm thinking of having a small party for couples at my apartment. I'm kind of excited for it.

So, here's the big question, what should my sweetie and I dress up as?

I was thinking of either Pebbles and Bam Bam, Danny and Sandy (Grease), Frankenstein and the bride of Frankenstein, or Kermit and Miss Piggy. Haha. I'm leaning towards Danny and Sandy.

I never understood what responsibility really meant until this year. Honestly, it's not so bad. Bills are bills. You pay for what you use, so I don't mind. However, it's times like these when I'm looking at clothes online that I get frustrated thinking about what I shouldn't buy when I know I can afford it. The sensible side of me is telling me to not buy anything and instead save up for future expenses or emergencies, but the overworked and fashion-loving side of me is urging me to just press that check out button and buy what I want.

One of my pet peeves is when people use "mines" instead of mine. You can be the smartest person in the world, but if you use "mines" when you really mean "mine," you're a huge idiot in my book.

Okay, I just had to get that off my chest.

I've been so busy lately that this weekend feels like a long-awaited retreat. I don't want to go out or do too much. Simply relaxing is something I haven't done in a while.

What don't people get: being clingy is not attractive.

I've been in a black hole lately--YouTube. It just sucks you in, and even when you try to pull away, something else grabs you.

Even so, I wanted to share this:

This is to let my little sis know that I am indeed still alive and kicking. I've just been busy with life. I come on here occasionally to check how everyone is doing every so often, but to be honest...

I'm grateful for all the love you give me each and every day.

Things in my life have been so crazy hectic that I feel like I have no time at all. I've been busy moving into my first apartment and buying/borrowing furniture. I now have a big screen TV courtesy of my sister and a leather sofa courtesy of my brother. Aside from the move, work and family have taken up the rest of my time. (I'm lucky I work with my boyfriend, otherwise we'd never see each other.) What little time I have left is spent checking my e-mail and messages on MySpace or Facebook. I feel bad I'm missing out on things, like baby showers and birthday parties.

Through all the ups and downs, he's always been there. He's my one constant. It sounds cliche, but he's my best friend. Even before we got together, he was always the one on the other end of the line. When I had random guy problems, he was the one I called. If there were family issues, his number would be the first one I dialed.

A part of me recognized him before I even really knew him. I remember thinking to myself that this guy is definitely the one who'd change my life. And, he has.

I was confused because I never experienced love like that before. It was so real that at times it hurt -- not because of something he said or did, but because I felt like I was being bombarded with all these emotions that I never felt before.

When we broke up, it took a while for the realization to really sink in. When it did, I found myself crying on the phone while telling my sister that I was happy with my decision.

I got a half day at work today thanks to the Obama Administration. Paid holidays are always fun. I hope you all enjoy your Christmas and stay safe.

Yesterday two of the things I ordered for my boyfriend were finally delivered! I was so excited. I spent so much money on him that I feel kind of guilty not spending as much on other people.

I had a not-so-great start this morning. I hate feeling rushed. When I knew I had to get my niece and nephew ready for school last night, I made sure I had more than enough time and yet it wasn't enough!

I got out of work at midnight, and when my boyfriend and I got out to the car it was frozen over! It was so crazy. I've never seen my car that icy. It took almost 15 minutes for the ice to defrost before we could even see enough to drive.

Thanksgiving day my nephews came over unexpectedly. Since I hadn't seen them for the longest time, I couldn't help but smother them with kisses and hang out with them even though I knew they were sick. Now, I'm sick. I have a phlegmy cough that is just plain disgusting.

Tomorrow is Thanksgiving already! I can't believe how fast 2009 flew by.

This year I'm cooking the Thanksgiving feast. It's going to be just six of us, so I'm sticking to the traditional Thanksgiving meal. Can't wait to get cookin'!

It's almost 3 a.m. and I just got back from a couples' night. I love those!

He left about an hour ago. Poor guy was so tired. I was in the middle of reading something, so he waited for me to finish. He fell asleep in the process and I had to wake him up to go home.

I wrote this blog post a year ago about how I felt towards romance. I came across it again and thought it'd be fun to share.

There has been a lot going on in my life lately. A lot of it has been awful, but I'm dealing with it the best I can.

My nieces didn't have school today because it's some sort of teaching training day at their elementary, so I had to wake up super early to watch them. Three little girls are a lot more trouble then most people would think. Yesterday, they took out all the kitchen utensils to play house. After I cleaned up everything, I went to the kitchen. As I was chopping up meat, one of them came over and asked if she could use the knife. She made this little face, , but I only saw and .

It's that time of year again when the clocks fall back! Don't forget to turn your clocks back an hour at 2 a.m. on Sunday, November 1.

I hope everyone had a fun and safe Halloween!

When my boyfriend and I first started dating, the first few months were wonderful. But, like most couples, we eventually started arguing a lot. The things we fought about were kind of stupid now that I look back, but at the time it seemed like a life or death matter.

Whenever I need some relief from the real world, I turn to dramas. I've watched an abundance of dramas, but don't ask me which ones because I probably won't remember.

It's almost 5:30 a.m. and I'm sitting here listening to The Classic Crime's Acoustic EP: Seattle Sessions album. I can play this album on repeat for the rest of my life because it's so good.

I don't know why I'm up at this ungodly hour. I don't know what's wrong with me. I feel so empty.