Once again I'm back posting on blog. I usually don't post on here anyways but I'm bored and not in the greatest mood so whatever goes.

A feeling of missing, of losing. The pain of crushing and of tearing. The thoughts of not knowing. A mysterious feeling like something isn't right. I hate this feeling the most. It can be said to just be full of major issues or to be mentally pained by something unknown. Yes, it is heart breaking and it do hurt me within every little piece of me. Starting from head to toe, this feeling numbs me. It's something that I can't figure out. A feeling of sadness and emotions. The rush of flashbacks and moments. I hate this feeling.

Yesterday night went horrible. My friend was hiding from me. He was being mysterious. It's been like a day since i've talked to him so I just miss saying hi to him. But, he was being mean to me and I don't know why.

Yes, I'm an addict to poker. Myspace poker. Lol.

This morning while I was playing poker, since I'm low on chips, I folded because they went all in. Damit I folded to a royal flush. Son of a bish! So I got mad and second hand I went all in. Royal flush baby! That's once in a life time. Two royal flush in a row. Oh yeah! I should've print screen that. Lol.

So it has been a year since I’ve known this boy. Well, to be exact it has already been a year and a half. He is truly psychotic. I met him from one of my girlfriend. She just thought maybe she’ll introduce us and stuff because she wants to. Lol. Anyways, so then so and so she introduced us, “Kaysie this is Meng and Meng this is Kaysie.” That was it. She probably hates me that’s why she introduced me to him. I mean he’s crazy. Plus, he’s younger than me and very annoying. I’m pretty sure she know how he is.

he said, "girls are like dolls, you're my barbie girl. cars are like girls, five grand to have. men are like toys, cum for more. kaysie is sue, total into slow head."

lol what a mean ass!! pfft* slow head my buttox. =) 08112009

kaysie says, "life stink, that's why we shower."

yay! july 6th, 2009. ay bay bay. lol i love that quote. =p

gaahh!! i fuucken hate you so much! i fuucken hate it everytime you come back and then end up putting the blame on me. i fuucken hate you!!

fuuck july 5th, 2009. i'm out of this blog shiit for now!

i hate it when people lie to me and yes hate is a strong word for me. i specifically hate liars, no doubt.

july 5th, 2009. kaysie signing out from this blog. =|

kaysie says, "smiles are deceiving. it's only an appearance to the eyes. it's just something you'll see, you'll never know how that person is really feeling like."

july 5th, 2009. ay bay bay. "now squeeze your ass muscles out of here." lol. =p

today he said, "damn you so sexy, you knock my jays right off my feet."
i said, "so what letter is your feet now, Q?"

lol i was bored okay! j4, ay bay bay! july 4, 2009. =)

turn around and give me booty? c'mon my chicken keeps clucking for your buttox. give i booty?

today is june 26, 2009. ay bay bay! =P