"Two people start out being in love. Then someone gets hurt. Then that person puts up his or her walls of protection and automatically withdraws and becomes critical of the other.

Then the other person gets upset and becomes more judgmental toward the first person.

Without knowing, the couple creates a cycle of conflict that goes on and on without either person ever noticing his or her role in the problem." --Ferguson

I thought we're all just talking and joking around like friends, and i don't see anything going beyond that.....But i guess i was wrong...i'm not leading anyone on..i'm just being nice and friendly to everyone...i'll be your text buddy and your friends but please don't think that i feel that way towards you...i'm not leading you on so please don't lead yourself on and blame me...if you happen to see this blog, you know who you are..we can still be friends

i met this person last year..i thought she was cute and i started talking to her but she just give me short answers...but when she talked to other guys, it's different..she actually answer them and have a normal conversation...i thought maybe she's not interest so i ignore her and move on...a week later she comment me and said how come i don't talk to her anymore...idk but i'm just not the type to chase if she don't keep me interest...

i don't have the most kudos(points) and mine's only 24..sometime after i post a good blog or a video of me singing, someone give me one point..is there a way we can see who's giving it to us? lol..idk i'm always so curious about everything lol...

i'll be at work all day tomorrow from 10am-7pm..that sux, that's my whole day right there..it's going to be boring..private message me, lets talk about people behind their back lol or talk about random things

Merced New Year is just a month away...i'm planning to sing on the first day...if any of my HP friends come into town, let me know so we can hang out

This song is so freaking hard to sing....i sing both the guy and the girl's part...

I'm so emo lately...there's nothing to do beside listening to music and singing along with it...my friend just got me into this song last night and for some reason i can't stop listening to it..so i made my own cover lol...i didn't know that this song exist..actually i heard of the title before but i didn't try and listen to it...i like the real artist voice...it's amazing!!! lonely lonely night

good night guys

i thought this song was easy to sing but nope, it's hard to sing a song like this because i'm so emotionless and my voice doesn't match this type of song but i tried

i admire those of you who are in a long distance relationship...i've never been in one before and i don't know how it feels like..or how lonely it can be but i'm sure when you guys finally meet up, it's all worth it... maybe some day i might be in one too idk

Puag thaum ub Yawm Saub tso qe hlau los
Txiv neej sib xeem khiav pos qau

Niam no Yawm Saub tso qe qaum los
Poj niam sib xeem khiav pos paum

the end

i meet up with a few of them for starbucks..it was nice and relaxing and just talking about random things and that's how we became friends in real life...some people i've met through here are very cool and i haven't meet them in person yet but hopefully one day we'll get to hang out

SugarPie is probably the first that i met...a very easy going and approachable person..she's not the type who think that everyone is a stalker...

Fresno_Gurlo..we met and had lunch together just talking about HP drama and became good friends...

idk what happen to the chat room..every time we log in, we get kick out right away...i know i'm not the only one who needs the chat room to work lol..anyway, i hope everyone's having a fun day since it's Halloween...i'll just stay home and gives out candy to the neighbor's kids if they're nice to me and don't throw eggs at my car again lol j/k..well they actually did it a few times

i'm surprise that there are no Happy Halloween blogs all day!!! Usually there will be a dozen blogs saying happy Halloween and it's the same thing over and over again...

I was in hp chat some three nights ago..and someone, i think it was nefertiti, that link us to this song...so i decided to make a cover..not the best quality

have you ever been in a situation where you're always so lonely...you feel fine during the day time when you're busy but at night you feel like you're the only one in this world...and even though there are some people who wants to be a part of your life, you just don't give them the time to fit in..but you always complain to your family and friends that you're always very lonely...should you blame yourself for not letting someone in to your life, or should you give yourself more time to feel like that before you can open up to other people..

my week was fun and busy at the same time..and it's finally friday!!! but friday is not a good day for me..it's just a day that i should rest and prepare for the weekend because i usually work all day during the weekend...since i have nothing to do today, i'll just stay in the chat room see you all there

have you ever set goals with someone and you ended up alone trying to achieve that goal by yourself? this happen to me four years ago but i'm glad that i actually stick to it and achieve it..but sadly i didn't get to share my happy moment with anyone...i'm hoping to achieve my goal when i turn 28..and hopefully between now and then i'll be able to find that someone..and settle down before i reach my big 30 lol...

there aren't a lot of different trees from where i live but it's still beautiful during autumn season..especially the road to the lake it was nice in november when the leaves are falling..i used to go bike there and sometime drive around there..it feels nice and lonely but it's still nice...lets go for a walk in that trail ^_^

Have you ever met someone that you really like but for some reason you just can't come up with a good reason to talk to her? For example, when i joined HP back in October 2009, i met someone who i think was very average but she's a super nice person overall. When i go into the chat room, all we did was greet each other and that's about it. I had a hard time trying to start a conversation with her.

She told me that i will have five children with my future wifey...and i thought that i will never get marry

i hate night like this..i can't sleep for some reason and it's already 3:30am...hp chat is so dead at this time too...i worked all day and i was tired at work but now i couldn't sleep and i haven't drink anything that contain caffeine...anyway, i'm hoping that HP will turn back into when i first join where people post about their daily life on the blog session...i miss having conversations with you guys..hp is so dead without me...

oh i mean hp is so dead without you guys

i've collected hundreds of quotations from articles, movies, and interviews..some of them are my own personal quotes..i just wanna share a few with HP

"When you expect nothing and you get everything, that's destiny." i think this quote is very straightforward...

forget about the title, i'll post a blog related to it another time...

i just wrote some three paragraphs and decided to delete it because it doesn't sound like a poems...and i didn't even intend to write a poem because it will give me goosebumps...anyway, school just started for most of you and i hope everyone's having a good time...see you guys in chat...

no i'm not gonna ask how everyone's doing..i'm sure you guys are fine..and i'm sure you guys want to know how i'm doing right? sure i'll answer that question..i've been very very very very kinda busy lately with work and studying to take a test and get my nursing license...i know that "very very very kinda busy" doesn't make any sense but oh well..anyway i hope everyone's doing good...i miss some of you HP people...i'm heading to work..bye

i miss how HP front page used to be...now we have all of these guys posting poems on the front page instead of the forum...idk, it's no fun anymore..i remember how people would come in here and post about their day and drama...i miss how the blogs used to be a place where people actually get to know each other...even though a lot of those blogs causes HP drama, it's still a fun place..

for the nice guys out there lol..forget about taking revenge or making your gf jealous after she dumped you or cheated on you...the best revenge is to just move on without looking back...stop complaining about how all women prefer jerks..that's not true..only women who are out of their mind prefer dating jerks...

i was a part time jerk once and i like it..but there's a time when she had enough and once she made up her mind, there's no turning back..my lost? maybe because i was only a part time jerk...

let me tell you why i prefer to be a nice guy in a relationship now lol...

i just want you HPer to know that i'm totally over her now..i hate this forking drama in my life..i don't trust girls anymore..enough is enough..i'm over her now..

i'm sure i'll be posting a blog about how much i miss her later..

and then i'll post another blog about how sweet she is..

and then i'll probably end up posting another blog about how i'm totally over her again...

it's an endless hp cycle..

btw,,i'm not even talking about my life atm lol...i haven't post a blog like this so i feel like i need too..just for fun..

One time i was at a children hospital with my classmates doing our internship. I was talking to a middle age female nurse and she asked me, "how old are you Leng? Are you married? any kids?" i told her that i'm 24 years old and single. she look at me and said, "That's a miracle. I don't see Hmong guys your age still single and not married yet." A miracle huh? Now that i thought about it, most of my childhood friends are all married with a couple kids already.

i don't care who you are, lets have a long distance gift exchange..
i know you want to

Btw I'm not desperate for a Vday date...i'll have to study super hard on Vday because there's a big test on the following day so i decided not to go anywhere with anyone that day...have fun guys

Do you feel lonely sometime? It doesn’t matter how many friends you have..you can always go to places with your friends..take girls out to the movie and have dinner together sometime as friends..there are many people that admire you and there are some that envy you..But it doesn’t matter because at the end of the day you’re home alone and spending time by yourself in your room listening to emo music…I don’t know about you guys but that’s how I feel for almost a year now since my last break up in the middle of march 2010.

hey guys i just found the instrumental to this beautiful song on youtube and i wanna share it...one of my relationship in the past matches this song word by word...

I don't know anybody from here that can match the voice of this singer beside Ki@..Ki@ you should find a guy from there and make a cover of this song together...

Water Festival in fresno is in April,,anybody from the 559 area wanna sing together? lol j/p

have fun HPers

She told me that if a guy like her,,she wanted him to chase her...She used to fall easily for guys and her ex bf cheated on her so many times..now she said she's going to take things differently and make sure that the guy really like her before she start having feeling for him..

It's funny how she met me because i'm not the chasing type lmao...i didn't tell her that i'm not the chasing type so everything's still cool and i sort of agreed with her when she told me about why she wanted the guy to chase her..to be honest i just pretend to agreed with her...