Dear Ex-Boyfriend,

Hmmm I am thankful for my health, because without my health, I wouldnt be able to be thankful for the wonderful things and people in my life. i am thankful for my family because without you,I wouldnt be who I am. I am thankful for my friends because you have help made my life better. I am thankful for my college family because you guy make it worth the struggle and effort! I am thankful for my education because the more i learn, the less i know! and I am seeking more because I am curious! i am thankful for my professors who makes my classes so freaken hard that i have to think twice as much!

I feel like crying because I miss you two, Paul and Justin, I hate you two for leaving your little sister behind. When I look at the stars, it makes me cried because you have told me that when I am sad and alone and the both of you cant be there, to look at the stars because it will be like you two are watching over me. You also says that when we are miles apart, the stars will our connections and we will be looking out for each other. There is a lot of stars tonight, does that mean you two are up there looking down on me? I hope so, because I am down here looking up there.

Lets snuggle and get all lovey dovey. I really mean it when I said that. I just love your smile. Sorry if i am random. I want to snuggle with you because its cold and we will be alone. will you make me one of your really good hot chocolate? and I also want some fudge brownies. I hope you can read my thoughts. I love getting random text from you and seeing you wait for me. Its so cold! dont you agree with me? hehehe, does that mean you are coming for me? I love texting you. Hehe, you make this dum speechless. Will this last? Sometime I wonder how long this will last before it end.

I know I am stubborn, hard headed, impatient, and difficult. I know half the time I am not being reasonable, start random fight, and just being bi-polar towards you. So thank you for being patient, understanding, and laid back about it. I love your fudge brownies! I don’t know how you do it, but you just know when I am feeling crappy. I love how you would bake brownies and give them to me in chemistry lecture. It always helps pass the time. I know I’m not the best girlfriend there is and I don’t always sit in next to you in class, but I really appreciate you being a great boyfriend.

I want to sleep with you! not the kind of sleep where we have sex, but those lazy sleep... where i can just lay in your arm and hear your heart beat! I want to lay in bed with you and talk about alien, zombie, biology, or just anything random. I want to start a fight with you and run away. I want us to talk and express our feeling and eat a ice cream as we talk. I want you to take me on a date to the park and push me on the swing. I want to star gaze with you and fall alseep with you.

Sincerely,
your lover

I want to go snow boarding with you! its okay if you dont know how to snow board, im not good myself. I will hold your hand going up the ramp until we get to the top. If you get scare of going down, I will push you down on your snow board. If you dont want to get hurt, you better start snow boarding. Hehe, i will follow after you and race you down. if you get hurt because of snow boarding, I would nuture and care for you. Hopefully you dont get hurt! I want to play snow ball fight with you and make a snowman out of you! hopefully you dont freeze. I want to go snow tubing too!

Hey silly girl, why are you wasting your tears? I dont want to see you cried anymore, got that! I only want to see you smile. I like it better when you smile, so turn that frown of yours. Remember the vows you made? you says that you are going to become the best at what you do! and when life throw you a lemon, you would make a lemon tart pie out of it. Than plant the seeds so you can give it to other people and let them share your joys!So why are you giving up on yourself now?

Can you believe it had already been a year. I was going to write a love letter to him but I have to go now ;(

Today marks the offical day of Autumn. So what does that mean? it means that half the world would be fill with vibrant warm colors Autumn is one of my favorite season because the world looks so much more alive.

Also, for those who are traveling back to school, have a safe trip and those who made it safely back to school, glad you made it safely there. So lets start the new 2011 and 2012 school year with a kick. Good luck and best of wish! STUDY HARD!!!!

School is around the corner for me and yesterday I finally got my school paper work. I am not going to let this opportunity pass by again. So I am going to grab onto my dream and see where it takes me. I guess I will be the bad person here, and break all the rules in my family. I will be the one to disappointment everyone, so that the younger ones can follow their dream. I saw all my aunties and cousin fall short of their dreams because they raised to not break family’s rules.

SO WHAT, Lol, im through being the good girl. I wanna get in trouble. I wanna start a fight (p!nk) so grandpa, get ready when i get home because you are NOT going to force me to marriage some 27 year old dude who i dont even know. that promise was made between you and your ex in Loas, dont involve me. We're all gonna get in a fight. I got a brand new attitude. And I'm gonna wear it tonight. I wanna get in trouble. I wanna start a fight(p!nk).

ARE YOU READY FOR ME? BECAUSE IM COMING HOME TO START A FIGHT.

i dont have enough money to run away to africa, so i guess its time i take a stand and fight for my rights.

Thank you my smexy college white boys. i really needed that self support lecture. got to admit, you guy can be harsh. i left crying. sigh. thanks guys.

lets go get him guys.

I am going to become a rebel and run away. I ma tired of following rules and orders. I am not ready for marriage, i am not ready to disgrace my family, I am not ready for anything. I am going to run away to the Congo in Africa. I am going to become an asian tarzan

Dear Pumpkin.

Hey,

You know who you are, no need to mention your worthless name. im upset and disappointed at you. i saw and loved you as a sister, but now i could care less. finally realize what a two face bi-tch you are. i hope you are happy because im done treating him bad. the only time you ever call is when you want guys number. behind that beautiful face lies a ugly monster, who re-taught me that its good to be heartless, cold hearted, and careless of people emtions. thanks for back stabbing me.

mainou

ummm going to be my new tattoo. blossoms or no blossoms?

damn, daniel henney is hot.
so my next door neighbor is up and loud.
once in a while, i hear moaning.
some crack head is smoking and i can smell it.
i dont get why the heater is on when its warm.
when its cold, the heater is never working.
im gassy.
i really need to pee, but im scare to leave my dorm room.
the hallway is creepy.
i can hear her moaning, yes, ohhh, ohhhhh.....
omg. im getting goosebump.
ok. i cant hold my pee no more.
good morning btw.

please dont get offended. i thought its was too cute. lol.

I miss you a lot tonight. I know you told me to be strong when you leave but i cant. I tried to be but somehow, I find myself crying because i miss you. I know everything you did was to make sure i wont miss you because you dont want to make me wait and feel alone. Hun, I miss you so much. I miss hearing your voice when i wake up and when i go to sleep. I miss the way you nag me about staying warm and eating a healthy diet. I miss how you always tell me a bed time story and when i have nightmare, i can shout your name and you would answer me.

so yeah, happy offically birthday pao!
yeah, i remember it correclty,
and i remember whose bday was on the 17. lol, it was my auntie. HEHE, bad niece.

Soomeone told me, I should leave HP with a bang! so here is my POW leaving whatever.

Dear sweetest drag queen of HP,

i think it's today, or i might be wrong... but i know its this month, so yeah

happy birthday pao, i wish you a good one and enjoy your day.

sigh,

Despise all the fake smiles and laughs, I am truly scared. Afraid to face life… Day after day, I read the medication label; warning might cause excessive bleeding, dizziness, nausea, and so on. Day after day, I force myself to take the medication prescribe to me.

Despise the happy thoughts; I am slowing killing myself one way or another. Slowly killing my body with pharmaceutical drugs or slowly, letting my own body kill itself. Some night, I don’t know what to do beside cry.

After leaving the gate of HP Valley, Little Piigy began to cry. Tourist who was already ahead of her turned back and walked up to Little Piigy. He squatted in front of her and patted her head. Little Piigy looked up and rubbed her eyes from the tears and Tourist smile. Little Piigy slowly smile and Tourist push her back. “STOP BEING A CRY BABY!” he yelled “We haven’t even walked a mile and here you are crying at the gate.” That really pisses Little Piigy off, so she got up and walks up to him and slap Tourist on the side of the head. “Jmoua!

SO LONG NOW,
WHEN I RETURN... I WILL IN DENTAL SCHOOL.
IM NOT SURE WHERE LIFE IS TAKING ME, BUT THIS ISNT MY HOME.
IM NOT CERTAIN HOW I AM GOING TO GET THERE, BUT I WILL EVENTUALLY FIND A WAY.
IM NOT PROMISING ANYTHING, I JUST KNOW THERE ARE BETTER DAY AHEAD FOR ME.
IM NOT AFRIAD TO TAKE THE STEPS AND KEEP MOVING BECAUSE ITS TIME TO LET GO AND MOVE ON.
I WISH 2011 BRING ALL OF YOU A WONDERFUL YEAR.
FILL EACH DAY WITH HAPPINESS AND LAUGHTER, SMILE FOR THE ONE YOU LOVE BECAUSE YOU ARE BLESS TO HAVE THEM.
LOVE AND KEEP LOVING.
I LOVE YOU ALL.