sometimes i sit here n think about u. the late talks we have at nite n the jokes we tell each other or the laughs we have over nothn at all...uve asked meeh to wait for u n to be patient. *sigh* iono if i can animore..
u ask meeh to wait til u come bak to kali in september. i said i would kuz to be honest, i wasnt gonna date anione til next july aniways.

Yay! Finally outta here. Hehe. *sigh* Longass day! Orientation was a blast, but it was a hella long. Met some new ppls n some pretty kute guys. Hehe.

I got signed up for two classes so far. I have English 10 & chemistry lecture n lab! Erghh I'm kinda mad kuz I have classes mon-fri... I still gotta sign up for math n something else. Hrmm....

*yawns* I think imma go take a nap now. Hehe. Byes!

Omg! I'm at CSUF for mah orientation. Erghhh... So long n confusing. Crappers!!!

Well I'm at lunch! Yay!!! Hehe. Gonna go check out the clubs n faculty so yuppers.

Btw wat courses should I take?

okas so i dnt wanna be mean in this blog but im jus venting so yuppers!

someone has been going in chat lately using mah sn n the same exact avatar trying to be meeh. uh wtf is ur problem? do u nt have a life or something? why pose as meeh? like reallie? create ur own sn n make a name for urself. seriously nw.. -_-"

omg! mah wish actually came true!!! *sigh* it was so random though. haha. i was on the phone with mah guy friend yesterday, then another one of mah guys friends kalled meeh. i piked up to tell him that i was busy, n then 5 seconds into the phone kall, HE kalled meeh. i freaked! haha..

i made a wish yesterday in mah bro's liddo pond. throughout mah entire life, i had nvr wanted anithing so badly, until nw. i made a wish that maybe couldve came true. i prayed to God n threw the penny bakwards. hopefully this penny would make mah wish come true, even if it wasnt thrown into a wishing well or magical pond.

good morning hp-ers. so hows everyone doing huh? *yawns* i woke up this morning thinking about wat imma be doing. hrmm im jus here helping mah mom file papers n stuff. boring luss. that why i decided to log on here n write another one of mah pointless blogs. hehe.

iono why but i still love u. its stupid i knoe. theres no point in loving u animore when u wnt give meeh a second chance n u wnt even talk to meeh. but i cant make mah feelings go away.. its harder said than dne.

im trying to forget u but everything in life reminds meeh of u. the late nite talks we had or the stupid fights we got into. even jus being on the phone while u sang to meeh. it made meeh feel complete n truely happie. nw, without u, i feel like something is missing.

I SIT HERE WONDERING IF WE COUKLD EVER BE ANITHING.. U ASKED MEEH TO BE URS, BUT THEN IONO.. WE DNT EVEN SEEM LIKE WERE DATING SO I'VE MADE THE DECISION THAT WE ARENT DATING. WE'RE JUS FRIENDS.. *SIGH*
WHY ASK A PERSON TO BE UR GF/BF IF U ARENT REALLIE MEANING ABITHING BY IT? J MOUA! UGHH..I HATE U, BUT ALSO LOVE U. *SIGH* I JUS NEEDA GET U OFF MAH MIND..

iono how to feel at this very moment rite nw. its as if im lost. iono wat to think or wat to say. iono if i should be happie or if i should cry. i cant tell mah problems to anione bc no one understands wat im going through. i dnt wanna trouble ppls with mah life n thats why i come on here n write these non-sense blogs. iono..maybe i should jus stop n keep everything inside n see how things turn out. writing out stuff on here makes meeh seem stupid to some, desperate to others, n lonely to many. iono.. i gotta take some time n think about stuff.

lols. ey ppls. so wats good huh? wow..ive finally graduated n im hella siked. graduation was yesterday n it was so much fun n it n was so kool. haha. the ppls i sat around n walked with werer hella fun to talk to n plus, we joked around thee entire time. hehe.

Today is graduation. Today is the first n last day of the chapters of mah life. I can't believe that I am finally graduating. *sigh* To tell u guys the truth, i'm scared. Iono wat lies ahead for meeh n iono if I can make it in the real world. I'm scared to lose friends n start this new chapter of mah life. 

Life seems to be unfair sometimes. We wonder why certain things happen to us n nt others. We wish upon a star to see if our wishes come true. We make decisions based upon wat we believe in or even upon stupidity.
Mah one wish rite nw is... Well I'm nt telln. Onlie two ppl knoe wat mah wish is in this world n it's meeh n God. Noone else. Hehe. 

im dne with ur ****. jus leave meeh alone for nw. i needa think things through. u'll nvr knoe how i feel at this very point in mah life. this morning, things were great. nw, everything seems lost to meeh. why do things always go up n dwn in mah life constantly. im jus so tired of it. i wish i could jus go to sleep n nvr wake up... *sigh*

Wow. I nvr thought this day would come, but it's finally here.  Week of graduation. Hehe. As I reflect bak upon mah past, I realized that ever mistake and ever chioce that I've made in the past, whether rite or wrong, was meant to be made in order for meeh to be here today. All of those regrets that I have about the past are no longer here. I've also realized that mah experiences throughout life has shaped meeh into the kinda person I am. If mah past were ani different, mah life rite nw wouldn't be wat it is. I'm happie in where I am in life.

OKAS SO I WAS JUS WONDERING N NO U DNT HAVE TO ANSWER KUZ IDC. ANIWHO, DO U GUYS FLASH PPLS UR **** JUS KUZ SOME GUY ON TC OR ATC OR MSN OR HP ASKS U TOO? I DNT GET IT... I DNT DO IT KUZ PERSONALLY, I THINK ITS STUPID N WHY WOULD U JUS SHOW SOME HORNY PERVERTED STRANGER UR ****. ANIWAYS..WATS UR GUYS' OPINION ON THIS?

i dnt get it. i like u but i also hate u so much rite nw. wtf? gawd... *sigh* i wish i could jus have nvr found out. wtf is ur problem. if u didnt like meeh then u couldve jus said so. erghhh.. this pisses meeh off.
u say u dnt belive in love, but u gave her a chance. u say u dnt wanna get into a relationship, but u n her are bf/gf. u acted as if u n i couldnt last, but jus look at u n her. u guys dated for two weeks n she already cheated on u.

As life goes on, u start to learn who u can trust n who u can't. Rite nw, I can't trust anione. Not mah mom, dad, brothers, n espicially not mah sisters. I've gotten stabbed in the bak by so many ppls n I'm tired of it. Yea I knoe I sound like a liddo selfish brat rite nw, but u DNT knoe the story so dnt start wit meeh.

Quick n simple!!!

Waterfest: It was hott, but fun. Had fun with mah hubbie n no she didn't show up, so there was no fight, so nw all of u can stop messaging, txtn, kalln, n msn-ing meeh about it. Lightsout won! That was a no brainer, but yupps.  

*sigh* so waterfest was hella crazy. lots of fights n shootings. gayass ppls needa bring that **** to a family event. stupidasses. *sigh*
aniways, stupid gurl didnt show up. yupps...she can talk the talk but she cant show nadda for it.
mah hubbie is going bak hme tomorrow. sadluss. makes meeh wanna cry jus saying it. *sigh* blah. i dnt reallie feel like writing so ill get bak to all the updates on tuesday. srry guys.

Ey gurl, so I kalled u yesterday, but ur mom said u weren't hme. Sadluss.. I jus wanted to talk things out. Oh wait, isn't that ur line? Bahaha. Aniwho, I've learned so much stuff about chu. Hehe. Like I told u, I've got mah connections n I always get mah way. 

Omg!  Mah hubbie is flying in frm iowa today. I'm hella siked. I can't wait to spend time with him. He's such a gaybutt. Hehe. 
He's onlie here for four days so that makes meeh kinda sad, but hey, atleast he's here rite. Lols. Gawd...I've missed him so much. Hehe. 
We're prolly gonna jus hangout during waterfest n go to asian prom. Iono yet. *sigh* I reallie wanna kiss him..lols. Random thought I knoe...
Okas well have a great day guys!   

So I was pist off bc of yesterday, but nw I'm oka. N no it wasn't about the whole Jamie drama, it was about something else. Eh..we make mistakes in life n we learn frm them n move on. 

I have three finals today. Ahhh!!! Lols. I tried studying, but eh..I'm nt reallie interested in that ****. Hehe. I have English first n then AP Bio n then Govt. Ewww I hate bio, even though that's mah major. Hehe. Govt is a waste of mah time, even though that's mah minor in college. Haha. Omg..iono why I even chose these major n minor. So boring, but u gotta do wat chu gotta do. Lols.
Ergh...I'm boring mahself with this blog. So bye. 

GOOD EVENING PPLS!! *yawns* how is everyone doing today? meeh, im great! hehe. mah blog yesterday made a couple of ppl mad n yes, ill admit that it was very childish of meeh. but this is mah life so hehe too bad.
so around 12:30 last nite, i started getting phone kalls n txt messages frm these wierdo perverted guys that are frm the 916 area. obviously it was jamie xiong aka phat-hippo aka mulan's ex gurlfriend who was passing out mah number like she said.

TO 4-TEE: THIS IS THE END OF OUR FRIENDSHIP. IF U WANNA GO N BULL**** UR WAY THROUGH LIFE THEN GO FOR IT. IM NT LIKE U N IM NVR GONNA BE LIKE U. IONO WHY IM STILL IN LOVE WITH U. U HAVE SOME GUTS TELLN HER THAT I LIED. I GET IT. U DNT WANNA BE WITH MEEH ANIMORE. OKA ILL LET IT GO, BUT ONCE U START LYING N SAYING THAT IM THE LIAR..THATS A DIFFERENT STORY.

ask meeh questions kuz I'm bored. Hehe. Thanks. Bye.

http://www.formspring.me/JVswifey

Btw...when did all of u start making a formspring? I onlie made mines kuz I saw that others were making one. I thought I should jus give it a try. Iono..we'll see how this goes.. :/

I deleted mah blog. Are u guys happie nw? Gawd...nw leave meeh alone.
Okas...new blogs. Imma try seeing things in a positive light. I've decided that this morning when I woke up but nw I'm jus blah! After I read the message she sent meeh, I was kinda pist but oh well. Drama comes n goes. Imma let everything go n jus go with the flow kuz trying in life doesn't seem to get meeh aniwhere. I'm dne nw so bye.

*yawns* Goooood morningggggg!!! Hehe. So how's everyones morning going?
Omg..I had this wierd dream about how I was on HP Chat n someone told meeh that they read mah blogs n everything. Then outta no where, he started hating about how mah blogs weren't interesting animore. ... Oh well, I dnt needa make mah blogs interesting for anione. Hehe. They're mah thoughts n etc so if u dnt like them, then dnt read them. :bigsmile: 

Played football in gym today. It was hella fun kuz I was the onlie gurl playing. Hehe. Plus I scored a touch dwn. Hehe. Hella happie but I hae a major headache frm it nw. Sad luss. Btw..I got tackled like a million times. Mah body is so sore nw. Oh wells...imma play again tomorrow.