here's a story i wrote a few years back about a kid contemplating his dreams...

As a child I’ve always wondered what lies beyond that vast blue sky. I would stay up past bed time sneaking up to the roof to listen to the soothing breath of wind that blows past midnight. Up there I felt like I was on top of the world nothing could bring me down not even the morning sun. I use to dream of going place that no one has ever been before like all the others before me. To leave a mark on the world that no one would forget. I never wanted to be famous, I didn't even want to be remembered I just wanted to be able to do it. To satisfy my hunger to do the impossible. My childhood was filled with longing. No matter what I did I felt like it wasn’t enough. Have you ever felt like that ? to wake up and think why does it feel like this is not what i was meant to do. i've tried plenty of things to try and fill the gap but nothing just seems to do the job. so one day i gave up doing what i do. just put everything down and left. my home. my family. my life. everything that matter to me. i felt like this path i walked was meant for someone else. and that i was meant for something better. And i just kept walking. not knowing where i was going but knowing that some where some day i'd find what i was looking for. like a blind man trusting his other senses. i walked with eyes closed and listened to my heart. my journey has taken me to the far reaches of the world. from the western world to the eastern kingdoms. i've swam with sharks in the Arabian sea. i laughed and cried with people i've never met before in my entire life four thousand miles from home. i've spent the day walking with the Cesar's of Rome reciting their life stories on stone. Listened to the wind speak of ages gone from relics of past cities. i've watched the milky way dance to the cycles of the moon from the darkest parts of the ocean. I've seen the horizon set a blaze by the morning sun as Orion drew his chariot across the sky. and yet when i pause to think about the things i've done. my heart still lingers as if those great escapades were but a taste of what life is to offer those who have the courage to chase their dreams and never give up. life has been wonderful but if you ask me it has not been fulfilling. for all those things i have done i've yet to see where this path will take me. Further and further i walk from friends. family. and home. yet i still look for what it is i'm missing. i can't explain what it is yet i search in vain. but i know that one day i will gaze up to the stars again. but this time when i do. i will see what it was that i was missing. maybe it was nothing . and my life has been run ragged because i felt that there was more to it than the simple life. but until then i will walk this path like no other. because who knows i may never see home again till i'm old and gray.