I asked "What are we?"
You replied "I don't know honestly"
"So I should keep my option open?" I asked
"Yes you should" you answered
Til now, I'm thinking
What's next for me?
Those words said it all
The hatred had been said
The battle I tried so hard to win
I guess victory was never in my hand
I'd thought I can keep on trying
In the end, I walked away with nothing
It hurt, that's the truth
The pain is like sugar put in a cold water
No matter how much I stir, it'll never melt
There's no bandage to cover the cut
Should I cry now? or later?
Should I hold it in and pretend to be strong?
What's next for me?
I've showed you my courage and my strength
It seem to be never enough
I've gave my all and my final all
This is it, I'm done trying
So many blood have been shed and I still lost
I really don't know what else now
My energy from 100% went down to 0%
There's no more percentage to even try
The feeling felt as if it's been taken advantage of
To just tried so hard and for you to turn your back on me
What's next for me?
Maybe I'll go on my knee and pray
I'll say "Oh lord heaven above,
Let me go blind, let the man I love burn my eyes
I rather not see his handsome face with that beautiful smile
Let me go death on both ears, let the man I love cut my ears
It's best to never hear his words and his laughter
Let him slice my chest, let the man I love take my heart
I rather let him take my heart so he'll know how much I loved him
Let him take the one piece of the heart and when he see the "I love you",It'll break into two.
then it'll be too late
I'm already who I am
a lady without eyes, ears, and a heart."